Sunday Video Blog

This week was.....Well, not that great. I was pretty sick for most of it. I don't think that I have ever been this sick=( The good news, is that I feel a little better today.



I lit the last advent candle today...That means its almost time.



Oh so close!!!



I bought honey the best Christmas gift to date!! He will filp out for sure!




We will end with a classic=)

Sunday video blog

I miss honey. You would think that because its so close, it would be easier. But its not.. For me it is harder, because I am so close and I want so bad to touch him, right NOW!



The very first song I ever played for him, and sang I use to be quite the karaoke singer...



My favorite actor in my favorite show, dancing to one of my favorite songs..How could you go wrong...



This is how I want people to feel about my work..


I feel like I could pull my own skin off to feel him close to me...


Just in to it...


We will end with my favorite Christmas song=)

My week set to music

I think that I am going to start to do a Sunday blog... I am going to put up songs that reflect my week=)

We shall see how it goes. Then maybe another day, I will post my week in photos. I miss blogging so, I am going to try to do it more!

Put the tree up, made me sad. I was very happy that my mom came to help.


Found this song it fits


Went back to work taking cheescake photos.


Talking to honey always makes it better!


That was my week=)

Not so sweet!

Med update…. So I started taking the medication metformin, yesterday being the first full day of it..

I took it in the morning, I felt ok, not great but ok. Around 11:00, I ate 2 pieces of candy from the Halloween bowl…MISTAKE! I was sooo so sick. I was sick all night. I did some research, and found out that it does this to a lot of people when the eat something sugary or high in carbs while on this medication.

Looks like I might be skinny in no time… They say that after it levels off that you can return to eating normal, but after yesterday and last night, I will never look at a piece of candy the same way in my life.

I feel pretty good today!

A baby soon, I sure pray so!

About 8 years ago, Honey and I decide that it was time to have a family. We stop taking birth control and tried, and tried. With nothing. With each passing year and what seems to be a hundred doctor visits nothing??
What going on with me, I would ask every time… We don’t know all your test come back normal..
Well something is wrong with me…Each year that past my symptoms got worse and worse. Wight gain being the most irritating one, no matter what I would eat or how hard I exercise nothing.. Hair growing place it should not, high blood pressure….NO BABY>> Something is wrong…Finally I see a doctor with since. She tells me I don’t know what’s wrong but we will find out. I get transferred to a specialist in Newbern, we think you have poly cystic ovary syndrome http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/polycystic-ovary-syndrome/DS00423 but your test are negative.. Don’t worry, we are sending you to the best fertility doctor in NC at ECU…I wanted to cry…

Well today, me and my mom made the hour and a half drive to ECU. My doctor is amazing, he talked to me and listened to me. He did a quick ultrasound… Yeap you defiantly have PCOS and that’s why you have had all these side effects. I am now on three different medications to get things under control. Once my love returns we will start the next step. I can’t even explain how I feel to have some news on what’s wrong, and a place to start. So I am defiantly holding on to the promise that God put in my heart that I will have my miracle in the coming months. Oh an my mom has this feeling that its going to be twin girls??? My poor husband if that becomes true, we have 5 girls dogs, that would be 8 to one…lol

I will try my best to keep every one updated on the progress of meds and what’s going on. I will also be cutting way down on the studio and focusing more attention on the Magazine.

A little insperation=)
John 14:27

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid."


Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.


Jn 14:27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you: not as the world gives, give I to you. Let not
your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

You’ve got mail…

Walking the pups tonight, I felt the first signs of a brisk fall air… Don’t you just love fall, makes you want to buy school supplies, a nice freshly sharpened bouquet of pencils? A quote from my favorite movie. You’ve got mail…I have seen this movie over 150 times. Its like an old friend to me. It always seams to come on right when I need it to, and always when Honey is deployed. It always seems to just be on when I am sad. No matter how many times, I watch it, it makes me feel better. Do you have a movie like that?
I decided that to day was, a me day. I checked only a few emails, that’s it. I have to say that it was very nice to chill for once.

Decaf pumpkin spice??

Some days… It seems like you get up with this really long list of things to do.
Before your feet ever even his the floor, you are reciting the days events to your self.
My list to day seamed to be never ending. I got up let the pups out gave them breakfast, let them out again.. got dressed did some editing, did some studio work. Went to Newbern, target, the mall, new river pottery, , Wal-Mart to get groceries.. Then I came home once home, I moved the living room around fed the pups, fed myself. Worked on the studios website, edited more photos.. Now bloging and snuggling with the pups.. Did I mention that I don’t ever use caffeine, but today I could not help my self pumpkin any thing pumpkin is my weakness.. So I drank a tall pumpkin spice and needless to say I might never sleep again.. Plus side I was able to get tons of stuff done. Down side I might be awake for days….. Decaf for me from now on…

Noah

It’s been a very long time since I made the time to blog.
I was consumed by work, which has now slowed down quite a bit. Always does the binging of school and the end. Does not stop me from having nuclear melt downs though.
Honey has come and gone. His R&R went by so fast; it all seemed to be a daze of people in and out of our home. It’s amazing to have so much family that wants to be a part of your life, but in the same breath it’s very hard when you have such a short amount of time to fit everyone in.
In this rush of people in and out, my mom had surgery. She had a very severe case of diverticulitis
And if left untreated it can kill you in her case. So going through the welcome home process of my husband without my mom’s help was a little hard. She is like the rock of our family, and seeing her down really made it hard for me to move forward. But my Sister and brother helped out and I could never thank them enough for their help.
The day before we left to go on our mini get away our male pitbull Noah Riley started doing this little limp. We thought he must have hurt it chasing the girls down the stairs the day before. We gave him a few days, but it was not getting better. We decided to take him to his doctor. We were prepared for hip dysplasia a broken foot, arthritis all of the above, except the tragic words bone cancer. I stood in the middle of this room while the walls started to close in on me clutching his leash and collor in my hands. Staring at this X-Ray. I could see the holes that this disease and put in my sweet boys leg. I started to go down, Honey caught me. What did all of this mean?? I tried so hard to hear what his doctor was telling us. Bone Cancer, too far to save him……My husband and I decided to do what was best for him after all the options were on the table. I still cry and have the same nightmare every night. The IFs go through your mind so fast your head spins.
To me Noah was a son, he was my best friend. Getting though the days without him are so very hard. I miss his head in the shower; I miss his big head on me while I am sleeping. I miss him always under my feet, I miss walking around the garden with him. Even though I know one day the pain will feel better, I can’t at this moment imagine that it ever will.

Day 133

Oh my were have I been….
The last month or so flew by, in a crazy blur. Great for the fact that every day that passes leads me one day closer so his arms. Something, I can’t wait for. Every single fiber of my body calls for him, all day every day.
So what I have been up too….. At the studio, I found out my right hands husband has orders so they are moving to Georgia.. But the good news is I am trying to keep her in the loop as much as we can. Other studio news, I hired and amazing person to be my partner, she has already helped more then she knows! If I can let go(I am a control freak it hurts to do so) I feel we really have no limits.
Home news, planted a garden. I really did not want to but, I did it with the help of my mom, for honey.
He loves to have a garden. This way when he is home for R&R we should have stuff coming out.
Had an extremely sick baby. Stella was, so sick, I don’t think that I have ever seen an animal so sick in my life. We almost lost her. I stayed up with her for a week and made her drink water every 45 minutes. We went to the vet two times, three IVs and 5 shots later, she is back to normal. Thank God.

Day 90:

Wow day 90…Three months without him, Seems like just yesterday though…At least I can pretty much sleep through the night without nightmares now. Things seem to get a little better some were around day 90 almost always. I am trying not to think about the 90 days left until I see his sweet face, and I am really not trying to think about the fact that he has to go back, after two weeks. 14 days seems so short and so long at the same time, when you say 14 days out loud it seems very long. But when you think that you will only have 14 days to hold him in your arms your heart starts to cry, because 14 days sounds so short, to short!

What a day. While not having honey home for my birthday is very sad. I still had a pretty great day. I got flowers from honeys mom. So sweet. And ballons from my mommy<3 cards and lots of bday wishes. Went to lunch with my grams and a movie with Taylor. Nice day for sure!

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Day 85:

So some times I hate people well more often then not I do. I hate it when they hurt poor defenses animals I hate it when they don’t appreciate military or military families. Its  really hard some times not to beat the ever living shit out of people some times….I love a man that, loves this country so much he would lay down his own life so that they can be free. That’s not an easy thing to do sometimes. My husband is proud to defend this country, and I am proud to love him.

Day 84:

No blog

Day 83:

I had a pretty nice day. Stella and I mailed honey a care package. I had to hunt down some boxes that were strong and a little bigger then the ones I usually use, because honey needed some extra things this time. I love mailing him care packages... It’s always fun to find little things that I think will make him smile, and help pass the time. Stella loves to go to the post office with mommy. She likes to say hi to everyone in the parking lot. I think that she is the sweetest most beautiful creature that god has ever made.

Yes mommy I would like something from the store...

Day 82:

No blog

Day 81:

Oh wow…I have been really bad at this the last few weeks… I don’t know, it kind of been like. I could not spare that last little bit of energy to form thoughts. I am trying very hard to pull my head out of my ass, and try to live some sort of normal life while honey is gone. You would think that after 80 plus days this would become less painful..Ummm wrong.. For instance last week it was cold so I went in the closet and grabbed a sweatshirt pulled it over my head…Honey?? Oh. That’s right he wore this the night before he left, somehow it got hung up without hitting the wash…I sat and cried in my closet for a good ten minutes. Have I really become so bad off that just catching a whiff of his smell makes me have a nuclear melt down?.. The rest of the day I walked around with my head in my shirt.

Day 80:

No Blog...

Day 79:

No Blog...

Day 78:

No Blog...

Day 77:

No Blog...

Day 76

No Blog...

Day 75:

It’s so nice to have the girls here and just get lost in all the fun of being a kid. Sometimes I envy people that have children while their loves are away. Although I am sure that they might think it’s harder with them.
I would love to be able to hold a piece of him every night; I would love to do all the mom things. I would give up everything to have that. I know that one day we will have our family because God puts nothing in your heart that he does not give you. But sometimes it’s a little sad, when you have tried so very hard for so very long, and you would give anything to hold on to something that is part of him!
Any ways we are having a blast!

Amber wrote a song we helped her sing it.

Day 73:

I have been pretty busy with Amber, I get Gabby tomorrow, so that I will have both of them till Friday. Its been great to have something fun to do. No work, just lots of FUN;)

Day 72:

No blog

Day 71:

No blog

Day 70:

I get the girls tomorrow!! So excited, we will have so much fun! I really, really need this!

Day 69:

Every other Thursday, I have dinner with my daddy! I love it, gives us a chance to talk and hang out. It helps the time go faster for me because I have something fun to look forward to.

There is a fire in my area that is a major concern to night. I have a ton of family and friends that are fight fighters so keep them and all the people in its path in your thoughts and prayers.

Day 68:

Wow so I have been really bad at blogging lately… I have been really busy with my work while an amazing blessing, it leaves me with little time. I am in the process of trying to learn how to balance work and life; I hope to have it figured out soon. I am such a workaholic control freak that it’s hard to let go some times. I also always think that I have to be strong and keep going never really showing my feelings to the world. The only person that I every really show myself to is my husband and with him gone it leaves me very broken. I don’t need much, but the one thing that I do need is him to balance me. I wear such a heavy armor and it’s nice to take it off and melt in his arms. When I can’t I find myself angry, angry that he is gone again when he was only home for 9 months. Angry that we bought this house and I have been in it for three years and him only 9 months. Angry that out of eleven years of marriage he has been gone for 5 years. Then most of all angry at me because I have these fits of rage, when some wives never get to see their loves again. Angry at myself for showing weakness when I am supposed to be strong, so he can do is job, and bring his men home. Angry because sometimes I can’t find the right words to say.

Day 67:

Long but fun day at work today. So tired:)

Day 66:

Lots of work to do early in the morning! Took Stella for a run today. The faster we go the better she likes it. She will love it when daddy gets home and takes her for sure! The other guys are way, way to lazy! Noah is like, what me run... Yeah right, I need a snack and the TV thanks!

Day 65:

I want my Marine Home! Don't think that I can or should watch Army wives when he is gone. I don't know how I have done this for the last 11 years. Deployment 5 way are you so hard? I have a million words rambiling in my head right now. However I can't seam to get them out. I just know that this is the hardest most painful thing that I have ever done. I love him so Much!

Day 64:

Had a pretty great day at work today. I shot two pregnant girls and they were both due on the same day.. How funny is that? I am in the process of watching quantum leap on net flex in my spare time. I remember it was my moms favorite show when I was little we use to all pile up on the couch very Friday night and watch it. Some of the episodes I can actually remember.

Day 63:

Well today was work, work ,work...So not bloging tonight must try to get some sleep;)

xoxo

Day 62:

I had a great day today! I am so blessed to have such amazing friends and such an amazing honey!

Honey told me yesterday that I had some gifts coming and boy did I… I got two pairs of shoes and a very cute pot of gold. Then I was floored by one of my best friends. She sent me the most beautiful flowers ever! I love you guys! Thanks for making my day so special!

Honey sent us matching ones! I can't were mine till he gets home. The color is purple but is showing blue...

Random Ipod song:)

Day 61:

Time is flying. That is good and bad for me. Great that every day that passes leads me one day closer to my love. Bad that I can never seem to get everything done… I was able to get the guess room done finally yay! Now I am up to my ears in editing, always seems like every one turns in their sections at the same time so I get a months’ worth dumped on me in a day. But with the guest room finished I will have no distractions tomorrow. St. Patrick’s Day! Being mostly Irish I love me some St. Patrick’s day!

Day 60:

Work was amazing today! I shot Taylor in a sexy, creepy abandoned building. Cant wait to work on those images…. Lots of editing to over the next few days, but I love it.

I really miss honey, I love to come home and tell him all about my crazy ideas, or my day . When he is not here it sucks!! I love the way he listens to me then smiles when, I get really exited and start talking really fast, which almost always involves me standing on my toes. Then he takes my face in is hands and kisses, me telling me to breath. Then we both laugh…..I miss that so much!!! I just want to have that for five minutes, I would do anything for just five minutes!

Day 59:

My day off flew by holy moly….I did get a bunch done, so thats good. Work tomorrow yay! I miss my studio when I am away from it….I ordered some rocking new prints on metal…I can’t wait for them to come in its going to be like freaking Christmas! Talked to honey today for a few minutes. It had been a few days.. I can’t stand that, makes me in the worst mood ever when I can’t hear his sweet voice.

Random Ipod song:

Day 58:

Went to the gym today and worked on the house.
This spring forward always gets me..Losing that hour makes me so sleepy.. I wonder why we do it; we are one of the only countries’ that does it.. I would like to have my hour back, I already can’t get everything done,that needs to be done.
Army wives tonight and coming home.. Oh that show makes me cry and it really makes my wish that it was my honey coming home.. Maybe I should not watch it…..

Random Ipod Song:

Day 57:

Not that much today work, the gym, went to my grandmas and hung out for a bit got to see my cusins.. I love those girls! I like to get them when they have time off of school and keep them a few days. We always have the most fun. They go on spring breck next week so I will keep them for a few days. I can't wait for that!

Oh I almost forgot..Stella ate my favorite tube of lipstick(http://www.babygirlboutique.com/besame-lipstick-cherry-red.html) while I was in the shower, she had it all over her...i would have taken a photo of her if I was not so mad at her. Its funny now though. Crazy little baby!

Day 56:

I had some girl time with Taylor today, lunch and a movie. Red ridding hood.. I thought it was pretty great!
I seam to be missing honey more and more every day… I really though that it would get better it usually does how ever with this deployment it does not seem to be the case…

Funny story about my pups…They are for the most part on a pretty strict schedule with five I have to have one for my own sanity..

This is their schedule every one up at 6:45 every one out…Play…I get ready for work then I come down and put every one in there space the older guys get to hang out the little ones, Maggie and Stella have to go in their room…I come home very one out, dinner, lots of hugs, kisses, play time…I try to always have them in bed by 10:00...My garage has been turned in to their bedroom/playhouse..
Who sleeps with mommy schedule.. So they all feel special..
Maggie Sunday
Roxy Monday
Stella Tuesday
Stella Wed
Noah Thursday
Izzy Friday
Noah Izzy and Rox Sat.

So the funny part is last night was Noah’s night he watched me put Stella up, then he took off up stairs got on the bed got under the covers and the look on his face was like..Yay I though it was never going to be my turn again… How do they know its their turn, how do they know how to tell time…It amazes me. I love them crazy pups of mine..

Day 55:

Day 55:

Wow day 55...I wish you were day 365...I miss honey so very badly. I disparately need him lying beside me at night! I went the last three nights without sleep.. I think for all three nights I had a total of 4 hours of sleep. The only good thing that comes from no sleep for me. Is that my mind goes in to supper artist mode I call it…I literally start to dream up these elaborate visions. I use to use that technique when I was in school and had an art project due. My mind is very strange.. Any ways honey is the only person that can get me to sleep when my mind cranks up like that. He lays with me and rubs my little bear paw…(Honeys words) until I fall a sleep. I miss him so much, I need him to calm my mind, I need him so I can feel whole!

Random Ipod song:

Day 54:

Pretty busy day today. I was able to get lots of cool new things done for the studio today. Then the gym… When I got home I had a package on my front porch. A gift from honey.. My gosh he spoils me so much that he has pretty much rendered me useless to anyone else in my life… Because I think that everyone should treat me like a rock star.. I swear to you that he makes me feel like my name should be in neon lights! I hope that I make him feel the same way because I think of him every second of the day and to me his name should be in neon lights.


The Transplants Gangsters And Thugs by MadameBarker

Day 53:

Going to bed early tonight. Going to snuggle with the pups and watch American idol. Gym early in the morning.

Ipod song:

Day 52:

Nice day today worked out.. Yay! I am up to 40 minutes on the treadmill, I am so exited about that. Working my way up to an hour! I got my self an early Bday gift to today. A nook color, its so cute! I can’t wait to read some tonight. Then when I got home I had a package from Victoria secret.. I opened it up and it was two supper cute bras… That honey of mine spoils me so much!! I love him and I miss him!!

Ipod song:

Day 51:

Got most of the kitchen done today. Much more user friendly. I think that when I moved down two years ago. That I just threw thing in the cabinets and went on with it. Well I could not stand it any more. So I piled every thing on top of the counters and stood there for awhile planning out my plan of attack.
3 hours later most of every thing has a shiny new place.

I will be getting this shiny new baby in the next few weeks… I have been drooling over him for a while now, and finely he will be mine.

Ipod song:

Day 50:

Not much today… Worked like a crazy person and that’s about it…
Going to relax with he pups then go to bed… Going to the gym tomorrow my arm feels good enough to get back in to it. Yay! I have decided that tomorrow I am going to clean out my kitchen cabinets and do some rearranging… Another Sunday project if I keep this up my whole house will be redone..

Ipod song:

Zac Brown Band : Highway 20 Ride
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Day 49:

While on my way to work to day I noticed the farmers busy in the fields getting ready to plant.
There has always been something very beautiful about that to me.
Being from this part of North Carolina I grew up surrounded by farms, my Grandfather actually crippled himself working his land.. So it really saddens me to see all of this amazing open farm land being split up and sold off to the highest bidder. It breaks my heart to think of the little old man famer that worked his whole life to provide for his family and keep his land. That now after being gone from this world his land is now a Wal-Mart or a sub division. Seems to be happing quite a bit around here now. Every time a blink a new housing area goes up…
So I am loving my new tat. I can’t believe how much it looks like my pups.. So excited that I found them and even more exited to finish!


Ipod song:

Day 48:

Oh man last night sucked!! I hate when I get those damn migraines…Thank goodness it only happens every once in a while….

Got my new tat today! Its amazing! I love it…. gypsy rose in the Jacksonville mall if you are in this area and want work done…They are amazing

Man oh man I miss my husband today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ipod Song:

Day 47:

No blog tonight I have a migraine;( Wish honey was home.......

Day 46:

Awesome day today! I was able to have a real conversation with honey on skype.. For the first time since he has been gone. The signal was amazing for like 15 minutes in a row.. Lucky day! Then work was great we had two really cute girls. Then worked out. Came home and fed the pups, then myself…Now its puppy play time. Idol tonight...Yay!

Random Ipod song:

Day 45

Worked out today…Yay! It was a little hard after yesterday’s moving extravaganza.. But I did it!
Supper busy day at the studio tomorrow and the rest of the week.. Very happy about that!
New Tattoo on Wednesday…I can’t wait!!!

Random Ipod song:

Day 44

I moved my home office in to a new room today so that I could design a new guest room. What a work out that was. Turned in to way more work than I thought it would be. I had to take the desk apart because it would not fit though the door…I started at 9:00am and did not get done till 6:00pm and I am no were near done on the other room, but my office is set up and I am ready to work… I will be keeping the quest room door closed until next Sunday when I have time to finish it, because it will drive me insane if I see a mess…I wish I could have gotten it done, but I can’t move another thing today or I will die… Oh I need honey! It was kind of like he was here today though.. I was running around the house looking for an Alan wrench when I had him say, plain as day, baby it’s in the kitchen in the drawer.. I was like. What…Honey?? Guess what when I when in the kitchen and looked in the drawer…It was there..
That’s true love;)

Ipod song:

Day 43

I had a pretty nice day today. I got to spend most of it with my Grandma, that is always nice. We went to my cousins birthday party, so I was able to see lots of cousins that I had not seen in a long time. Worked out great that this was my Saturday off from the studio. Lots of editing the next couple of days….
I can’t wait to go to the gym tomorrow. Yay.

Random Ipod song:

Day 42:

I had an amazing work out today. I think that every day I go, I fall a little more in love with working out.. Never really thought that I would… But I have! My legs are a little sore already going up the stairs that might be a little bit of an issue tomorrow, but I love the pain…. Heehee maybe that’s why I like going, I am one of those sick freaks that likes that kind of pain, working out, tattoos. I love it; lets you know that you are alive.
I also signed up for a little light tanning. Nothing major just a little color. I know how awfully bad tanning and the sun can be, and I am mega proud to rock my pale skin. I defiantly don’t want to look like those 40 year old women with leathery tanned out skin that you would actually think was 60.. But I am feeling a little light color would not hurt.

Random Ipod song:

Day 41:

Day 41!!! What.... Wow time is going by very fast! Grrreeat!

So for today’s blog, I decided that I would share a dirty little secret with you guys... I am a product junkie.. Really who needs all of this stuff, I have lotions and soap that I have never even opened… I was watching that hording buried alive on discovery the other night and it totally freaked me out… I do not want to be the little old lady that has to rescued from her pile of junk…So now I am going though my house.. Saying yeap that can go, that can go, that can go…. I totally will think more about what I need and don’t need….

Random Ipod song:








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Day 40:

Pretty great day today. I worked out, that was awesome!! I felt so good afterwards!! Was able to get some running around done. Made my appointment to get my new ink done! So, very exited about that!!
I can’t wait for all of the work that I want to get done to be done! It feels like it has taken forever to get this far. But my plan is to have every thing that I want done by August. And be in rocking shape. Honey might just pass out when he sees me inked all up and in sexy shape…

Random ipod song:

Day 39:

I was able to get some much needed work done today.. Yay.
My new favorite thing.. Green tea with honey and apple cider vinegar… It’s amazing!
Check out how awesome apple c cider vinegar is for you!
http://www.homeremediesweb.com/apple_cider_vinegar_health_benefits.php

I always drink tea from my favorite mug!

Random Ipod song

Day 38:

So I really have not had time to tell you guys my cool news… My work has been published in a second book.

http://www.amazon.com/Contemporary-Pin-Up-Photography-Tom-Denlick/dp/0764336762/ref=sr_1_3?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1282395473&sr=1-3

Very exciting, we made the first page. One thing I would really like to do one day is put together my very own book… One day for sure!
It should be kind of mellow the next few weeks with just a few shoots here and there. Which is nice, it will give me a chance to get things done around here and get all caught up…. However it does leave time for me to think… That almost always involves me calling my assistant up saying.. Hey wear your painting clothes to work today.. Or….Lets go to home depot….

Oh I am detoxing off of diet Pepsi… So I was really tired today, and sported a mean headache for most of the day…I wonder how no caffeine is going to feel?? I am going to drink a nice hot cup of green tea with fresh organic local honey and apple cider vinegar in just a few though!
Trying to get supper healthy. You would not believe how bad diet anything is for you!! So if you drink it I would advise you to look up how very bad for you it is and stop;)

Random Ipod song:

Day 37:

Not really in a blogging mood today….Isabelle, decided that Stella could not kiss Maggie and bit her in the face… Stella is ok, her lip is kind of fat and his two little cuts right in her whisker line..
Me on the other had, pretty bad shape, this has happened once before with Isabelle and Roxy. I just can’t stand it…I cry more then they do, that’s for sure! I really don’t know what gets in to Isabelle and why she always has to start trouble with the other pups.. It kills me!

Day 36:

Started working out today. My first real work out in a while… So very exited about that. I am getting my assistant a membership as well. That way we can work out before work every day. So now I just have to stay motivated. Can’t wait to wear all my cute clothes again. Lots of editing to do, but I am going to make sure that I make time for myself and my new workouts.

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Day 35:

I joined gold’s gym today and bought a new pair of work out shoes! I can’t wait to start tomorrow.
Operation hottie begins!!

I hate putting stuff together…umm yeah I hate it. Now that honey is gone, I have no choice…I had to put
together a chair that I ordered for the studio.. Sucked, hurt my finger…I also ordered a new desk for my home office took it out of the box and OMG it has like a million pieces.. So yeah I am not putting that together today.

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Day 34:

Went to the doctor today for my three month checkup after the whole I have to take med for the rest of my life for it, because its genetic crap…Any ways all is good.. I do feel a lot better now that I take it though. Never really knew that I felt bad until, it was better. I don’t think that genetic things like that are fair it’s like you are being punished for something that you had not control over… Oh well…

Went to diner with my daddy. Yay! We went to my favorite dinner, and if you know me you know that I had…….French toast…….heeehee Yeap, every single time!

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Day 33

Major head ache/ neck spasms today…..It really sucks….Plus I did not sleep last night. Just an all out bad, miss my baby so much it literally hurts, cry… Bad Day! Sometimes you just can’t be positive, you just can’t help but miss them, no matter what you do….Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.

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Day 32:

Looong day at work, but an awesome one. Pretty tired so not much in today’s blog.
Hug your pup close tonight<3 Ipod song:

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Day 31:

So I was thinking about our wedding today, and I thought that I would try to remember all the songs from that day.

The seating of our parents and family: only time enya
Brides maids: going to the chapel
Bride: What a wonderful world
My song to honey: Valentine
Honeys song to me: lone star AMAZED
First kiss: kiss me
Exit song: The Marines hymn

Cake cutting: How sweet it is to be loved by you
Garter: she’s got legs
bouquet: girls just want to have fun
Our first dance: can’t get enough of your love babe
Dance with my daddy: Butterfly kisses
Last song of the night: They way you look tonight

It really was the best day of my life so far! I wish That every thing was digital, then like it is now.
So I could have all the cool stuff that I do for my brides.

Wedding sound track

Day 30:

Tomorrow is my anniversary. I will be married to my best friend and the love of my life for 11 years. Wow 11 years.. Seems like just yesterday, I met him. I thought he was so cute with his tattoos and his bad boy, recon job… It really was love at first sight. We have been together since our first date.
On our first date we had reservations to a restaurant in Wilmington, but we could not find it.. No GPS 12 years … So after driving around forever Honey says I am starving, how do you feel about pizza? That sounds amazing…The next place we saw, Chuck E Cheese.. It was best date I had ever had.. Then we walked on the beach were we saw a sea turtle lay her eggs. It was amazing!
We had so much in common; it was like our souls had known each other before. I have never met anyone ever, that got me.. Honey does, he is my hero, my lover, my best friend, my everything! We have not always had perfect times but 90 percent of our life together is almost perfect. I could never imagine my life without him!

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Day 29:

Today was the first Saturday that I have had off in three months. It was great, and I had no idea what to do with myself….Rest, work… I decided to rest…Ahhaaa so nice. Had some amazing vegan chicken nuggets today.. So good! I really love to eat this way and would love to do it all the time. It’s hard though because the closest whole foods is 100 miles away. But I did find some pretty great recipes online. So I am supper exited to try things out.

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Day 28:

My assistant and I were able to get a ton of stuff done today at the studio. Woohoo.
It’s really looking great. I got an amazing idea to use a toolbox for the makeup kit.

So once again we were out loading up on goodies, we had two carts full of containers.. Almost killed our self’s when we knotted over some toolboxes. Opps.. Then we crammed them in to my truck… It’s pretty rewarding to watch your baby grow up. When I started this in 05 I shot out of my dining room. Now I have an amazing studio, and it’s only going to get bigger and better.

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Day 27:

I did not get to talk to honey today. I hate it when that happens, makes my day so slow….
Lots of work done…Busy little bee…
I saw three little blue birds on my fence today, they were so sweet. They flew away before I could take a photo of them. I think that they were pretending it was spring.

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Day 26:

Not that much to day. Lots of work, mailed honey a box…Getting ready for the snow….
Early night going to snuggle with the pups and watch American Idol.

Goodnight

Day 25:

Wooohooo…Day 25! The days seem to be going by pretty quickly! Honey and I said that we would not talk about the whole year, but instead break it up in to six month stints. So five months to go…until the best two weeks of my life I am sure! I am a serious planer. Ask any one that knows me I am literally always planning something. I always have a wave of things going on in my brain. I have this book that I take every wear I go and put everything that I do in it. I don’t have it.. Well If I don’t have it I freak out, it’s not a pretty thing to witness. So any ways, I am planning the ultimate one week get away with honey! Can’t really tell you too much about it, as the main idea behind this, is that honey reads my blog every day. So what I can say is FUN and lots of lovein…
So I drove honeys car to day for the first time since he left. I don’t want it to set too much while he is gone. I hate it… I have a truck, honey use to have a truck but he spent so much money on gas going to work and to the beach every day that he decided to get a little car. It does save gas, but it’s so low and little. I really miss his truck! I guess you can’t take the country out of the girl after all.

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Day 24:

Wow you really can see all kinds of people at Wal-Mart… To day I saw a lady had to be in her 40s completely and hopeless stuck in 1985.. She had ratty hair sprayed to the moon hair, sitting in her
Iroc Z…Windows up smoking a Newport with an ash a mile long. Listing to what I can only image was Poison… I laughed pretty hard inside… I guess that’s why they have that people of Wal-Mart website..


So I am obsessed with changing my duvet cover to match the seasons. This is the set I will be getting soon.

In love with it. I love Potery Barn! I am in the process of collecting items to redo my bedroom. I prefer nice vintage finds when I can find them. I love the rush of a good treasure hunt! Hopefully I can collect all the items that I have dreamt up, before honey returns. I would love to have an amazing new bedroom for him.
I am diffently getting this guy for our room, maybe in black...Not sure yet. It's electric how cool is that?


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Day 23:

Day 23:

Not a lot went on today at all… Hung out with the pups, got some much needed rest.
Watched the supper bowl… Yay Packers. Don’t like either team, but I hate the Steelers. Lol
Watching football without honey really sucks, as its one of our favorite things to do!!

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Day 22:

I had a long but fun day at work today…

I stop by pet smart on my way home to get the pups an extra special yummy treat. I made a joke that they were in there room making an ASPCA commercial about me, because I have been working so much… After I was home and letting them out to potty, I was missing one of them… Isabelle had the treat bag opened and had helped herself to a bone. What a silly little pup.. Defiantly going to bed early tonight! Puppy cuddles time!! Photos of my new hair. Heehee I love it! Why did I ever wait so long to do it like I wanted??

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Day 21:

Today was a pretty great day. Other than a mega lack of sleep. One of my best friends came to visit and I was able to do a supper sexy photos shoot for her. Supper busy day tomorrow… Really looking forward to a nice break, which I hope is sometime soon…Just a few days in a row to chill would be amazing!!

So me, my friend and my assistant were talking to day while shooting and we got on the subject of baby names…. Ok so this may offend some people that read this, but this is my option only… Dumb things to name kids after.. Food, example being, Apple, Reuben, or colors… like Burgundy.. To each his own but I really don’t get it!

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Day 20:

Oh today were to start….. I woke up like I had been binge drinking, and I DON’T drink…
Stupid sickness trying to get its claws in me… I have been fighting it for a week or so, and it has caught up to me… Fever, upset tummy… I will spear you the horrid details. Not good though, and I still have tons of work to do. I defiantly miss honey today…. Alright going to go drag myself back in to a cave. So that I can be ready for work in the morning. Oh I promise photos of my totally rad hair, when I feel better.

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Day 19:

Was able to get more work done today. Now I can only hope to get the rest of it done tomorrow…..
Dyed my hair. I love it except the pink is not as dark as I would like so round two tomorrow then photos of it. Received one of my Valentines/anniversary gifts from honey today.

I love them I have a slight obsession with vans…. I love honeys attention to detail in everything that he does. I love how he loves me and how even thousands of miles away, I get gifts.
American Idol one tonight.. It is one of my favorite shows and not for all the crazies. But for the honest to goodness people that stand up there in front of the judges and you can see how much they love and want it. I love this show because I can relate to how that feels. I love what I do so much, and I always want to be bigger and better. I have put blood, sweat, tears and pain in to my craft. I have that passion and hunger to be something great. I get it….

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Day 18:

I got to talk to honey on Skype to day twice! Whoohoo…. That makes for a pretty great day. Love it when the planets a line and it works out like that. It’s just so nice to see his sexy bear face… Ummmm… Ok back on track… Any ways… I was able to get even more work done today, very happy about that. Getting closer to having it all done by Friday.
I seriously hate my nails right now, ever since the gnawing off incident, they look horrid. I look at them and scare myself. Tiring to decide if I should just have then done again or let these horrid little stubs just grow out. I really think that I will let them grow out…. Going to die my hair again, dark brown like it is now but I am going to bleach out my bangs and make them pink, I think, pretty sure…..
Like this maybe.

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Day 17:

Very busy day editing all the photos from our massive valentines day shoot extravaganza.
I was able to get a lot accomplished though. I hope to get most every thing that I have to get done, done by the end of the week. That would be amazing if I can.

Went to my bothers to day. I am very lucky that they live so close. The last time honey was gone we invented Monday night as our supper fun play night. I go over and watch TV eat dinner and play with my little nephew. Its so much fun to do. So I always look forward to Monday nights.

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Day 16:

I had a very nice relaxing day. The sun was out so the pups played out side most of the day. They love it when they get to do that. I love seeing sunshine I induced smiles on there faces. Its really precious to see.
I spent most of the day watching Pushing Daisies on netflix. Love that show.. Decided that I was going to do nothing to day and stuck to it! Tomorrow starts another busy week.

Ipod song of the day.


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Day 15:

I was telling my assistant today about a little black bear that lives, in the woods across the street from my house. He is so very cute. Any way they story moved on to our favorite animals. If you know me then you know my most favorite animal is a pit bull puppy, but did you know that my second favorite animal in the whole wide world is a fruit bat? How can you not love that sweet face??

Kind of reminds me of a pit bull with wings, maybe that’s way I love them so. Honey is very good at finding me stuffed animal fruit bats. I love him!! My next favorite animal is a skunk… Yeah I know but how cute are they??? Did you know that you can have a pet skunk, well you can and they use the letter box… How cute is that?

When we have a baby it will have this costume for sure!

 My next favorite animal the sea turtle… then stingrays….Oh I have so many..
Honey and I saw a sea turtle lay her eggs on the beach, the night of our first date. I knew then that we were ment to be and that I would love him forever!

Did I ever tell you that I LOVE, LOVE, Love animals?? Honeys favorite animals are monkeys, but not just any monkey these little guys…

They are pretty cute!
What’s your favorite animal?

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Day 14:

So….. I just want to say that I hate people that poop sunshine and rainbows. Makes me litterly want to punch them in the face. If I could have gone through the phone to day this girl would have needed some medical attention. Honey and I though it would be a nice idea to refinance our home to take advantage of the crazy low rate. However it has been a night mare. With honey so far away I have to take care of stuff. This girl calls me today and at first was like super make me want to vomit valley girl nice….Any one that knows me knows that gets you punched, even when honey is not gone and I am not stretched so thin. Any ways, she tells me that she needs to talk to honey, because I am not good enough….Hang on lady I have a POA…Not good enough, I will scan it and send it you…Then lady then tells me that, it would go faster if he could sign the paper work. Good luck he is in a sand box for a year. I can hardly talk to him, how are you going to??? Finely got it taken care of…. Have to get up supper early so goodnight all;)


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Day 13:

So I usually change my sheets once a week. I have not changed them since honey left 13 days ago.
I have to wash them tomorrow. I might have a nuclear melt down, when I do. My room and my bed still smell like him. So in a sense he is still here, in my head. When I put the new ones on I will spray them with his cologne, but it’s not the same thing…. I shot the cutest little pinup girl today, tats, the hair the whole nine. Her husband left the same time as honey, and she told me that she has not done his laundry or sheets yet and was going to do so today. Needless to say we had a little cry then a little laugh. It’s so funny how most military wives are so connected and we don’t even know each other. Went to pet smart today and loaded the pups up on treats and food. They have been acting out quite a bit since honey left… It usually takes a month or so for them to figure out they are stuck with just mommy, before they level back out. I hope it’s soon though!
Ipod song of the day….

Day 12:

Day 12:


Not really that much went on today. Miss honey like crazy…. You never really know how much stuff they do around the house until they are gone. I would do any thing for him to be home with me right now!

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Day 11:

So last nights hopes of going to bed early did not happen. I am a workaholic apparently. Finely drifted off around 12:00, Then honey was skypeing me. What a pain in the butt that skype has been… He can’t get a singal at when he does its about a minute long then 20 minutes to reconnect. But at lest we got o see each other!! So that was really nice. I feel like I am getting sick……….That really, really sucks!! I have to stay well at lest till next week to busy to feel bad. Wow you know you work to much when you have to have an appointment to be sick.


Ipod song form honey.

Day 10:

What a long long night!!! Apparently my youngest pup Stella, decided it was a good ides to eat her blanket. So I was awakened around 12:30 to her throwing it up. I got up cleaned up the mess, cleaned her up. Then it started again, literally throwing up huge chunks of blanket. Thankfully around 5:30 she stopped, and all is well now!

I got to skype with honey today. He took his laptop outside and somehow got a very faint single. So we were able to talk for a few minutes. Thank goodness!! He just knew that I was having a bad day! Makes most of it better, when I get to see his face!!

Should be working because I have a mounting of editing to do. But I am going to go snuggle in my bed and call it a super early night!! Wakeup in the morning ready for the rest of my crazy week.

Ipod play list song… Once again honey knows his way to my heart! With a zombie love song;)

Can't really hear it that well boobooo!

My song to honey today

Day :9

So time with my sis this weekend was pretty great. I made her do a pinup shoot today. Heehee She is a mommy and does not get to do stuff for her self like she should so it was her bday gift from me, and I finally made her do it. It was really fun to watch her transform for house wife and supper mommy, to sexy rock star vixen. The way she walked out of my studio holding her head up high, was worth a million bucks. Did I mention that I have the best job in the world…. Any whos… I miss honey to day, really badly!! Football is on, and I want so very badly for him to be in his chair screaming at the TV, while I make diner…. I bought stuff today for his V-day box and it will go out tomorrow, lots of yummy goodies!
I lost 2 pounds this week yay! Night I am going to go upstairs with my pups, watch a movie, relax and get ready for the crazy busy week a head of me!

Honey, you are my soulmate, every thing that we have been through for the last 11 years. I still can’t imagine my life without you! You are the first thing that I think of in the morning and the last thing that I think of when I close my eyes. I love that I rock your last name! I love that you are mine, and that I am yours! I love that, I get to grow old with you! Most of all I love that when you return, we finally get to have our babies and our little love story will be complete!
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Day 8

Day 8:

Today’s bog is a little early…..

My sisters husband is in the Army and he is way at school. So my sister is in from from Fayetteville.
My mom is going to watch her boys and my fur kids, so that my sister and I can have a break. We are going to stay with our daddy. How fun!! A night with me and my sis spending the night in our child hood home….
Makes me think of days when me and my sister and brother, would stay up all night playing when we should have been sleeping. When your all grown up and have all this responsibility its fun to think of those simple days, when all you had to do was home work and play. I miss that and often think back to the huge oak tree that use to be in my grandparents front yard. I loved that tree, I don’t know what it is exactly that brings me there. But sometimes in my sleep, I am there by that tree, green grass under my bear feet, all is perfect and calm, still. I love that place. It has been years since that tree was there or since my grandparents were alive, our since there house was the way I remember it. I guess things change its this they way the world goes on.

So I know that I had said the ipod song would be something from honeys play list but I think it should be what I feel on the day I write so today’s ipod song is…

Day 7

Day 7:
Wow one week without my love… I am getting used to being by myself a little.. I can’t believe how much room is in my shower when it’s just me, or how much room is in my bed. But I would do anything to be all cramped up with honey again. I found another note to day from that clever little honey bear.

How did he do this?? He must have been stuffing notes for months. He told me that I would never find them all. Every time I find one, I want to have a massive break down, but I just think of him here and it makes me feel happy, like they were meant to do, not sad that he is not here.
CRAZY busy at work I think that we are shooting 6 days straight next week. So thankful for that, I don’t know what I would do if I had to set home and think all day.
I am really hopping that honey has Skype up soon, it was nice to see him, and I have not been able to do that for a few days now.

So I was looking for a playlist song for tonight when I remembered that it was Friday. It was 12 years ago on a Friday night when my husband, then boyfriend played this song for me since then it has become an anthem for us. Ever single Friday for 12 years my honey has woke me up with these words!! “Good Morning Beautiful it’s Friday and I am in love with you!” So I decided that every single Friday the playlist song will be its Friday I’m in love.
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Day 6

Day 6:
Wow what a day…. We had a blast at work today! My assistant and I had to go in today to build our V-day set for this weekend’s shoots. So we started off at home Depot to pick up some lumber, a staple gun, hot glue the usual crafting supplies. It was quit hysterical to see how men look at women in a hardware store. I think 10 guys asked us if we need help, like we were lost or something… So Taylor and I decided that next time we make a hardware run it’s in high heels.. We got or loot and headed out to my truck to find that it did not fit???? It took us about 5 minutes of let’s try this, maybe this… Then like magic we got it to fit. We crammed it in and it felt like supper Mario brothers Mario cart. But we got the job done and the set looks amazing!!
I can’t believe how fast time is flying; the day flew the week for the most part flew. As much as I hate that time, and my life is going so fast, I hope that it continues to do so for the next year. Oh remember those little notes that honey left behind for me to find. Well I found one to day in the bathroom of my studio. That honey is a clever little bear. I love him, and I miss him so very much!
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Day 5:

I am supper busy with work witch is great!! I am so blessed to be able to do what I love to do every single day. Plus it helps me keep my mind busy. I started a new Photoshop class by one of my all-time favorite photographers. Yippy!! Happy dance!!! So I am supper excited about that. I love to learn new and awesome ways to do my job.
So I broke a nail to day I have been getting them done, honey likes them, and my assistant talked me in to doing them. I love her by the way. Heehee… Any ways, that lead to me literally gnawing them off my nails. So I guess that’s one good thing about honey being gone.. No nails, no shaving legs. Heehee…
American Idol tonight my guilty pleasure;)
Tonight’s song by random iPod playlist is…. Goodness could I love him any more?

Day 4

Day 4:

Not a bad day at all today. I got some really great sleep after I talked to honey and he told me that he was nice and safe, and getting settled in.  Then I got a bunch of editing done, still have a ton to do though.

Honey made me a play list of songs to listen to while he was gone. I was listing to it today and I LOVE him. We really are made for each other! The play list is so me, no one else could think that a song about zombies is romantic, but him. The best playlist ever! So I am going to try and put up a video or song from my list for the next 44 days. Heehee so FUN!

Day 3

Last night a real good friend of mine reminded me of something that I had long ago forgotten about.

The passing of the EGA.

 This little gold EGA. This was passed down to a new wife, on her first deployment as a sign of strength and courage. A little token to let you know that someone had stood in your very same shoes. I was passed this little EGA in 2000, 4 months after our wedding for my 1^st deployment. The longest 8 months of my life. New wife, new house, and remember no internet back then, no skype… Honey was a Recon Platoon Sargent, in Kosovo and they were on the move the whole time. I think on that deployment I talked to him 3 times in 8 months. That little gold charm around my neck, gave me a little peace and comfort… A few years later, I meet my friend she was a new wife, getting ready to go through her first deployment. So I passed the charm and the story down to her. Well this got me thinking last night as I remembered this little EGA. How far its journey has been, how many wife’s had it brought some comfort to. If it could talk what kind of stories might it hold? I would like to think that it continues to be passed down and that it has somehow brought comfort to every wife that it has been in contact with… Just a little precious piece of gold on a simple chain yet somehow linked to every marine wife that has worn it. Because only a military wife knows what it is like to were these shoes.

Day 3:

Wow only three days…. Dang I was really hoping to wake up today to 300 at least..

Today I went to lunch and it was great! Then grocery shopping. Yuck! I hate doing it without honey, really, really hate it. Shopping for one pretty much stinks. We love to go shopping together and cook together I think that is one of our most favorite things to do! So I miss that. However do to that yummy cooking and the fact that I set on my booty most of the day editing photos. I feel a little out of shape. So I am only doing supper healthy foods and, I am going to start banging out the exercise. So when honey returns for his R&R witch will hopefully be in August. I can be a perfect 113. I start tomorrow at 154 I will keep you posted on that every Sunday when I weigh myself.